Bike

Committed to Commute

The weather hasn’t exactly been cooperating with my attempt at riding my new commuter bike everywhere, but I have still gotten several rides under my belt.  When I headed out on my first adventure, a ride to target, I was really excited.  I wasn’t sure how many miles it was, and I took the most direct route.  I was thrilled when I made it there in around ten minutes.  I don’t know why I thought it would be much longer, but turns out it’s just over a mile away.  I rolled up and placed my bike against the rack.  My hands shook as I was trying to figure out Darin’s bike lock.  I was both nervous and excited.  I rode to Target and I didn’t fall or die!  I took my lights, water bottle and bag off the bike and plopped them into my backpack and headed in to do some light shopping.  Thank goodness I had a list, or I would have forgotten what I had gone for.  I got my few things, checked out and headed back to the bike rack.  I put everything back on, took off the lock and headed back home.  I got back and told Darin I wanted to ride everywhere, as much as possible!

We rode to lunch that afternoon.  I wasn’t sure how I would handle riding right after eating.  I train in an empty stomach mostly.  When I do eat before activity, I usually plan it so that I have plenty of time to digest.  I could have probably had a lighter lunch, but I did ok just the same.  I can’t describe how free I felt.  I wasn’t terrified that I would crash at any moment.  I didn’t watch for pebbles in panic that if I hit one, I could go flying.  I wasn’t afraid that I would forget to un-clip and have a zero mile per hour fall.  I actually felt comfortable on the bike.  I felt like a kid again.  Except for the part where I used to want to do tricks on the bike, that part is gone.

I want to ride in the rain, but not when the lightning warnings tell you to seek shelter immediately, and not when the puddles are so deep cars can’t make it through.  It was like that for a few days in a row, so I wasn’t able to ride but was eagerly waiting for it to subside.  It finally did and I found any excuse I could to run an errand on my bike.  Almost out of vitamins?  Gotta ride over to Walgreens.  Forgot something at Target, gotta ride over to get it.  I was super excited this evening to ride to the pool for my swim.  I had the day off, so I was able to take the time to do so.  I will say that riding with a swimsuit under my shorts is not ideal.  The pool is just over two miles away and it felt really good to ride out there, go for my swim and then ride back home.  Guess it’s like a mini bike, swim, bike brick workout.

There are a few downsides to riding the way I have been.  The first is the traffic.  I am working on being more comfortable on the actual roads, so of course there will be traffic, but it’s pretty bad here.  The drivers have no courtesy whatsoever for cyclists.  It makes me nervous, but it’s just something I have to deal with.  The roads where we live absolutely suck for cycling.  That was one of the reasons I had issues on my road bike.  There are chunks out of the road and cracks that run the entire length of the bike lanes.  The nice thing about my new bike is that they are far less hazardous.  One thing I did not think of, that is a bit of a downer when riding is the number of dead things you see.  Frogs are the norm, even in a car, but I have seen more dead things on my rides than I care to.  Lizards, snakes, birds, a duckling, and large things that used to be furry but are so far gone I cannot tell what they once were.  It’s unfortunate how many things cars kill, even more unfortunate how many of them just remain there.

While there are those few negatives, I am hopeful that I will be able to continue to ride as much as I can.  I look forward to translating that comfort level to my road bike.  I’m even trying to figure out how I can ride to work.  I’ll have to figure out where I can store my bike.  I’ll probably give it a try on a Friday at first.  This way, I can wear jeans and not have to worry about changing shoes.  I may have to wait until the weather cools down some.  I am not sure any amount of wipes or towelling off will hide the fact that I sweat like a beast when I ride!  We shall see.

Life, Triathlon

Wants, Needs and In Betweens

Every human being needs air, water, food, shelter and sleep to survive.  Every human being also has a list of wants.  Sometimes they classify them as needs.  Some are simple, people want to be happy, to be loved, to surround themselves with good people.  Some want things like money, important sounding job titles, to look a certain way, to dress a certain way.  The list is endless.  Like everyone else, my wants have changed over time.  I used to want the big titles and the money.  I’m so glad that I made the decision to change all of that.  Now, my wants circulate more around time enjoying life.  I work to live, I no longer live to work.

When I started doing triathlon, I wanted a few things.  I wanted to put myself out of my comfort zone.  I wanted to embrace my fears and eventually overcome them.  I mean, I picked a sport that consists of three: Swimming, which I suck at and was terrified of for the longest time.  Cycling, which scares me only slightly less than swimming.  And  running, which I used to loathe, but now love, so I am good there.  In case you didn’t keep track, that’s 2/3 I struggle with.  Another thing I wanted, was to get healthier and lose weight.  I wanted to feel fit and strong.

I knew that to get healthier, I needed to eat better.  I used to eat McDonald’s for lunch several days a week and it would not have been unheard of to have it for dinner too.  I used to not care what went in my face as long as it tasted good and was quick and easy.  I’ve done well changing that for the most part, but it’s something I still struggle with.  I do want to slim down more.  I would love to see abs one day, but lately I have been somewhat complacent.  You see, I feel so much better than I used to.  I am sure that can even be better, but when I compare that to the trade-off, I am not sure it’s worth it.  Therein lies the problem.  I am, well, satisfied.  If I were to be honest with  myself, I would love to lose that last bit of chub around the old mid section.  I’d love to one day feel like I wasn’t two pounds of jelly in a one pound bag in my tri-suit…. But the thing is, I apparently don’t want it bad enough.  If I did, I would do more, I would do better.  I don’t want that more than I want the sweet taste of a chocolate ice cream cone from DQ.  I don’t want it more than zesty wings and amazing fries on Thursday nights.  I just don’t, and that’s ok.  For now.  I hope one day I want it badly enough to put in the hard work and sacrifice it takes to really get my body to the next level.  Until then, I just have to suck it up, buttercup…. Or better yet, suck it in, I guess!

What I do want bad enough, is to be a better triathlete.  For that, I am ready to put in the hard work.  (Yes, part of me hopes that hard work ends up pushing that other “better bod” goal along too.  Is that asking too much?)  I have gotten accustomed to waking up at 4:30 every morning and am slowing building up my workout time each day.  I start a new training plan in about a week and I can’t wait.  I’ve been hitting the pool more regularly, which is something I used to be horrible at and I plan to eventually join the group swim.  I am still hesitant to believe that I can really become good at the swim, or even comfortable with it, but I will do my best.

The bike is the one thing that I really know I can improve on.  My biggest obstacle there has been fear, especially since that one bad wreck.  I did pretty well on the group ride, which was great but it really reminded me that I need to be out on the road more.  I think I may have jumped from having not ridden in years, to clipped in to a road bike, a little too soon.  I decided to take it down a notch and start riding a standard commuter bike out on the streets.  I still work the road bike on the trainer and will join as many group rides as I can.  In the meantime, I plan to run errands, work on handling in general, and ride more in the rain with the commuter.  This will be my stepping stone.  Once I build a comfort level that I can translate to the road bike, it will be smooth sailing.  I hope.  Maybe one day, I will even shoot for a flying mount!  Ok, I need to slow my roll on that one.

When it comes to the run, I am pretty happy with where I am.  I still have mega room for improvement, but at least I have seen progress there.  It’s what I enjoy  the most and I know I won’t let that go.  My focus for running will be maintaining while I focus on the other two.

The other thing that I want, and maybe even need, is to be around more like-minded people.  As much as I would like to, I can’t convince existing friends and family to get into triathlon.  Nor do I think they would enjoy it much.  This is that challenge I didn’t even know I wanted for myself.  This is the extra bonus item I have gained along the way.  Putting myself out of a totally different type of comfort zone, has brought me the opportunity to relate to people who love this sport as much as, or more than I do.  It has given me the opportunity to fill my days with new energy and encouragement.  I always tell my son not to confuse wants with needs.  Not to make himself think he needs things that he can surely survive without, but I will admit there are some things above those five survival items.  For me, I need  all of this.  Not in the sense of life or death, but in the sense that it brings me joy…..and what is life without happiness?